Today was good. I took the act, which sucked cuz I know i didn't do very well. Ah well. The only two colleges I'm thinking about anyway is AU and St. Andrew's Presbyterian College. If I go to AU I'll probably major in Equine Science. If I go to SAPC it'll be Equine Business Management.
After the test I had to ask the proctor if she knew where a phone was cuz my cell is stupid and doesn't work anywhere. She let me use her cell to call J. He came and picked me up and we were going to go eat lunch then, but I couldn't decide what I wanted. I think I'm too indesicive. Only spelled right. Since I couldn't decide we went to his house so he could pack. He's going to be at his parent's house for awhile so yeah. We finally decided on McAllister's (again, only spelled right). I had a BLT and I wish I had eaten more of it than I did. It's in the fridge now getting stale. I'm almost sick of myself. It's like my body is saying, "NO FOOD!!!" J said it was because I gave up fried chicken for lent. He told me I wasn't a southerner because of it, but he was just kidding bout that. After all, there's not many people in the south who have never NEVER EVER seen at least one complete episode of The Dukes of Hazzard. J hasn't. And he says I'm not southern. HMPH. I used to live off of that show. That one and Full House. Anywho. The funny thing about me celebrating lent is that I'm southern baptist. Sb's don't celebrate lent. I just thought it would be neat though, so :x
I had a lot of fun today. It was definately a welcomed break from my real life. It was too bad that I had to be at work at four. Ah well. Anywho. I'm beat. I'll talk to ya'll later. cya. P&L
Ok. I have to work tomorrow. This is just shiznit! Haha, I love that word. Ok. Well. J's still picking me up, we're still going to eat, and we're still going to pick up my prom dress. After that he's gonna drop me off at FRA (FXcking Rite Aid) then yeah... Mum and Dad are gonna bring my car tomorrow night so I will have a way home. I'll just be stuck arguing with Alicia. "NO BXTCH, I'M NOT PUTTING THE FXCKING DRESS ON!!!"
Anywho. I guess I'm gonna go. No one reads my blog. Ah well. Just as well I guess. After all, you loose brain cells by reading my blog. Of course Joseph told me the other day that the free radicals floating around in your head make you loose brain cells. Also the more oxygen you breathe the more brain cells you loose. :idea: Maybe that's why people like Britney Spears are so fXcking stupid. :twisted: Well. I guess I'll see ya later. P&L
Ok. So she tells me that she talked to Ms. Debbie and that I'm off Saturday. Well then tonight Emily says that Debbie told her if I didn't show up I would be wrote up. Shit, Debbie gets on my fucking nerves. Well. I'm going to tell Debbie I can't be there. So I messed up and thought I'd be back by 3. She knows I'm not going to be able to be. I'll talk to her myself tomorrow at work and I dare her to tell me I have to be there. I won't say anything except, "I can't promise I can make it. I didn't know I wouldn't be back in time." and if I don't make it and I get wrote up...I'll tell them they can shove that fucking job up their fucking asses. I'm sick of it. :evil:
Saturday I have to take the ACT. It's my first time so if I don't make well enough to get into AU then I probably will have to take it again. I dunno. AU is close by, only about thirty mins, but there's this one college in North Carolina that I've been looking at and thinking about. St. Andrew's Presbytarian College or University or whatever. They sound really cool. They're the first college I've seen with an Equine Business Management degree. That's with horses. It's what I wanna do. Anywho. After I take the test J and I are going out to eat. He's picking me up and all. then we're going to go pick up my prom dress and I dunno what else we'll do. Anywho. Yeah. It's Tuesday night now. This week is going really really rrrreeeeaaaallllllllyyyy slow. Well. cya. P&L
Today is good. In case you don't know, and of course you don't, I love horses. I have two, Cope (short for Copenhagen, yes the tobacco) and Duke. Well, Duke is a bit crazy. Actually he's not. He's a real skittish horse and he's just about too smart for his own good. Cope's just barely smarter than an old donkey. Anywho. Duke (who is about four) still is not trained. Not to the standards at which I consider trained. He's green broke. I could get a saddle and bridle on him if I wanted to, but riding him would be no picnic. Anywho. Today I got him to work on a long rope, without a round pen. I've only worked a horse once on a long rope and then I had the pen. You really don't know how much strength it takes to keep that darn horse going in a circle and not running away from you without the pen. I was nearly dragged across the pasture several times. Anywho, I'm happy. Maybe by the end of the summer I'll be able to ride him well enough to go places with him, trail riding, my favorite! Anywho. cya. P&L.
Ok, here's a lame poem I wrote. Is it even really a poem? Ah well, who cares? Sleep tight.
[b][u]You[/u][/b]
Why do you like me? Why do you hate me? Why don’t I deserve you? Why can’t I live without you? I see myself before you, and wonder where I’ve gone. I see myself after you, and wonder where I was. Do you really like me; or is it the hate I fear? Do I really deserve you; or can I truly live without you? I don’t want to love you. I don’t want to know you. The fact is though, I do. So what are you going to do about it? What am I going to do about it? Will you shrug it off once more; or hold me in your arms? Will I shun you away forever; or on your shoulder cry? Why do I love you?
Stupid, right? Anywho, I'm going to bed. I have to be at work at 7:45am. I guess you had the right idea after all, huh? P&L
Ok. J came by work today. Why? To get a coke? I dunno. I asked him if he was going to his home or his parent's home and I couldn't hear the answer. He was out the door before I could say huh?. The reason I asked was cuz if he was going to his home then he drove the thirty minutes to my small down just to get a coke, highly unlikely as he lives within walking distance to the Walmart in his city. Hey! A girl can dream can't she? Anywho. I'm pretty sure he said he was going to his parent's. Whatever.
So I get off work at nine and I'm racing the 11 miles home so I can talk to him, Tom, and Audi and ya know what happens?! I get online and no one is on!!! I mean no one! Not even people I don't talk to! J's logged on on his cell, but he's not answering me, so I'm sitting here typing in this lame blog whilest I eat sunflower seeds. This is crazyiness (yes, with a yi).
Audi found her prom dress. She came by work and showed it to me. I like it. I told her to get the t-shirt Tom got her from the 3 doors down concert out of my car. It's a M and I don't think she wears that. I told her if it didn't fit her, I claim it. I know it's not the "best-friend thing to do" but I hope it doesn't fit. Tee hee! :twisted:
Well all. I guess I will go. Joseph just signed in on MSN. Oh joy, let's see what kind of fight we get into today. Cya. P&L
Hi. I'm Jena (it's a self-given nickname) and this is my secret blog. Funny huh? You're probably imagining mission impossible music and such. It's not like that. I'm just tired of telling all my problems to Audi and J. I feel like I'm acting like a little spoiled child. Audi says she worries about me cuz I don't talk about what bugs me. Well, I've told her that sometimes her reaction to things is not what I want to hear or need to hear. Yet Audi is still my best friend and sister. She knows my mind better than I do sometimes. God that's creepy!
Then there's J. :oops: I must admit, I am attracted to J. He says he doesn't like me that way, and I guess that's ok. A sixteen year old high school junior has no business going out with a nineteen year old college freshman, right? Doesn't matter anyway, I don't want to go out with someone who doesn't want to go out with me. Guess that means everyone, huh? Ah well, :?
We are going to prom together though, as friends only. Please don't be like Marian, my sister, and think that we'd be going as anything else. :roll: Audi's going to prom with J's friend Tom. He's cool. All four of us had lunch together yesterday. Like Audi, he's cool even if he is a Bama fan.
Anywho. I have and hour and thirty three minutes before I have to be at work, so I guess I'll write more later. Cya. :wink:
